Once again, he convinced her that he had laid aside his sin and wanted to be right with her and right with God. She lets him come home but does not know the outcome. These feelings could be those of any woman married to a man with an addiction.
Perhaps it is you…
Today, I am afraid
Because I feel trapped
To a life of suspicion
Void of description
Because of another—depraved
The more I look, the more I see
The sin of another that seeks to deceive me
So what do I fear?
Deception, rejection, or just plain old pain?
None of which I wish to claim
From God alone, my soul waits
Like David, as he hid behind the gate
It is all too scary for me
My soul cries out to be free…
Free of the fear
But God, if this is my portion
To give another the option
To break my heart again
I will do it for You—my true Friend
Because the opposite of fear is love
Sometimes we have to open ourselves up to being hurt for the sake of another. But we can know that our Lord, who is our truest friend, will never leave us or forsake us.
“For the love of Christ compels us because we judge thus: that if One died for all, then all died; and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again.” (2 Corinthians 5:14,15)